I admit it. I'm the "weird" kid.

 teenager boy sitting on ledge looking at city skyline
“I wonder why I can’t be myself. Why can’t they understand me. The whole world is dictating how I should be. But I just want to be myself.”

Growing up has been a tough road for me.

It wasn’t as smooth and rosy like I had thought it would be when I was young.

Thinking I was okay and cool the way I was and everyone would like me as I am.

Reality really hit me bad.

Most times I was seen as a loner.

I never really mingled with other kids as a teenager. I loved being alone cause when I’m alone I feel like I’m in another world, in my world, I’m God, I’m the President and I’m the only citizen.

I’m alive when I’m alone.

But people wouldn’t understand, not even my relatives nor friends.

They would tell me I’m weird for wanting to be alone by myself, and some would say my social life was dead.

I was literally called a ‘Deadguy’ with no social interaction skills at all.

Being the kind of person I am, I took things said to me personally and wondered why I couldn’t be accepted the way I was.

I guess I never really understood myself, I never knew why I was the way I am till I stumbled across articles relating to mental health.

I discovered “I am who I am” and learned to appreciate myself as I am.

If you are like me then you’ll understand what I mean.

Others call us names like “Introverts”, “Melancholic” and so on.

But we are who we are. Instead of focusing on the negative things said to me because of who I am, I focused on learning how to become a better me by teaching myself how to sing and become a professional artist in my lonely days.

 depressed boy sitting with back against concrete wall

People might call us names. Shy. Loner. Weirdo.

But always remember first that it’s you who dictates who you are--not others.

You are who you say you are.


Chazz Jaden(born Adebisi Abayomi) is a Nigerian singer and songwriter, a student, and also an artist. He is into hip-hop, RnB, pop, fusion and contemporary music. An avid lover of music, art and dogs , Chazz hopes to be the first Nigerian born singer to win the Grammys. You can catch up with him on:

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